Free like a bear

Very often in life, there is a huge gap between theory and practice. And I experienced that during the process of quitting my job. The theoretical idea of quitting the job sounded wonderful… the concretization of this plan felt a bit scary!

I was playing with the thought of starting a new life and quitting my job for over 1 year. So after I became aware that this target was within reach and after I started the first negotiations about job termination, my excitement was increasing day after day… It was pure positive energy. The thought of putting an end to months of bad energy felt amazing… but only until the negotiations became concrete and I got a draft of a termination agreement in my hands. As expected, I was pushed to sign quickly, being told that the monetary compensation would be lower if I waited too long. It felt a bit like one of these sales tricks where you are told that the super special discount on a product is only valid if you buy it immediately! At this moment, I started realizing that all of this was serious… and real! And I started asking myself many questions and doubting. What if all these people telling me that it is crazy to leave a safe job were right? Was I crazy and irresponsible? What will I do after my world tour? Would I end up homeless collecting cigarette butts on Berlin’s streets and selling the Strassenfeger or the Motz (homeless newspapers in Berlin) in the subway? I had the piece of paper I was dreaming of in my hands, and was now hesitating to sign it?!

Happily enough, I remembered why I was doing that… After signing it, I would be free! I would be able to travel the world! I would be released of many negative feelings that I “stored”! I was again feeling the excitement of giving myself the chance to realize a dream… and, before a new doubt phase would pop up, I quickly signed the agreement. I felt that this was the most important paper I had ever signed in my life! And I was so happy and so proud! Proud of my courage… proud that I didn’t let my doubts take over.

This was 12^th September 2018… one of these days that change your life forever.